Survived a pretty rough day at work. Reorganizations are never easy but when there are announcements about when it will happen and then there are delays in the timeline it adds a lot of stress and frustration. Ultimately in my mind, it doesn’t matter. Tomorrow there is still work to be done and people will still be around to do it. They may not be the right or preferred people but none the less, we have a job to do and a job we must do.
Tomorrow I walk into the office with a lot of the same work I had today. I do have a new opportunity ahead of me that both confuses and excites me. At the end of the day I have to stay true to who I am and what I want to do.
I have no clue what’s ahead of me but I know I am up for the challenge. Let’s hope the challenge is up for me.
One of the major benefits of being employed by a larger corporation is that they offer incentives for leading a healthy lifestyle. Today, I attended my second health coaching session and learned more about myself in 45 minutes than I’ve ever been willing to admit.
First, I am general eating well. Sure, like most I have my vices, but for the most part I am doing the right things.
Then my coach dropped the hammer. I struggle to get started. Most people can relate to this. It usually goes something like, “I’m going to start working out on Monday”. Well, as you can imagine, that was at least 4 Mondays ago and I’m still not doing anything. I have plenty of excuses why I haven’t started but they are just that, excuses.
Coach wasn’t done. After some probing questions we got to one of my biggest challenges. For me, it is all or nothing. If I’m going to start a program like P90X I’m either going to commit to the entire thing or do nothing at all. I found that this mindset applies to a lot of things I face. It isn’t necessarily a bad thing if it can be controlled, but clearly I’m not always securely in the drivers seat.
It will take many more coaching sessions before I can change my perspective on things, but understanding the challenges before you is half the battle. I’m not quite sure what the next step is. I do know however, that tomorrow starts my 90 day run at P90X.
All or nothing…
I took a twitter hiatus shortly after the start of the year. Part of my absence was driven by a change in jobs; restrictive IT policies, an outdated “smart”phone, and an overall need to focus on the task at hand. The break was needed. I spent my time acquiring new skills, doing some personal reflection, and enjoying watching the twins grow.
I had a couple false starts trying to get back to posting regularly. So I had to figure out what was so difficult about getting things going again. I first blamed the access challenges I had. It didn’t take long to realize that was just an excuse. Even still, I simply couldn’t force myself to start posting.
Finally it hit me. I follow close to 900 people. I used to be able to keep track of everyone through lists and tools like tweetdeck. Like any organic environment, without constant grooming, things can get out of control… quickly. Unfollowing everyone and starting over is not an option. Instead, I started a short list which I will continue to grow as I reengage.
Feel free to follow my comeback. Don’t be offended if you aren’t on the list. Instead, @reply me and I can add you to the list. Thanks for your support and I look forward to reconnecting.
What stifles initiation? That is something I have been pondering for some time. Now, I don’t want to confuse motivation with initiation. We can all be motivated to do something.
I am motivated to workout every time I notice I’m getting a little flabby in the midsection. Of course, being motivated isn’t enough to do much about it. I dont get off the scale and go for a run immediately. Usually, I do little things like eat smaller meals for a few days or extend the walk the dogs and I take. Results are limited. I have taken corrective action but I haven’t been motivated enough to completely change my habits.
That is where the question of initiative comes in. What has to happen to take that next step. How do you go from telling yourself, “I really need to do something about X” to saying “This is what I am doing about X”?
I’ve wanted to take control of my career for years. I have been successful and I continue to grow. What I haven’t done is grab the bull by the horns and drive myself where I want to be. I have been very fortunate to work with people who saw my strengths and helped me find success in positions that would be mutually beneficial for myself and them. Could I have defined what those positions would be prior to having them? Absolutely not.
What does all of this mean? It means I am taking the first step. After years of doing what others thought I should be doing I am going out on my own. I am negotiating what is best for me and not what is best fo others.
The plan is not to be selfish but to be selfless as I move forward. I know quite a few people who have followed the same path I have for the last few years. I will work to help others. I will work to help people who have had the same realization I have take that first step.
It isn’t enough to be motivated to do something. It takes guts and determination to take initiative. Make it happen.